Camera staring at wall and a white door

Just another mindless abyss
Odsherred Teater/FILM LAB

photo by christine fentz

a kind of mental petit objet a.

The Pendulum still swinging.

VOICE: BLACK OF WHICH HEAVEN, the pendulum still swinging.
Were he to go to the Bathroom now
He would be pissing on the mirror of his own mind.

[Paul drools into cup held over bucket.]

PAUL: If I were the mufti man...
MAX: SINCE I AM THE MUFTI-MAN, MUFFLED by whose hands in my mouth
I'd be dead
you'd be dead.

(Already dead.)

VOICE: GOD'S HANDS GOD GOD

PAUL: Oh.
[pause]
New beginning New Life and
No beginning
and the world turns as the mind adrift in rivulets of pure
[pause]
pure
[gapes mouth]
mind.


NANA: Look how you look in the mirror Paul. You look happy.
[pause]
If we sniffed glue together.
[pause]
No. No.
Too soon. For that pleasure. For that peak of inhuman pleasure.

[Others drop sugar cubes in glasses of water and stir looking up to heaven, drums from Battle of Algiers begin.]


ALL: (murmur) The Blue sky.

KOLBINN (sniffing glue): BLACK OF WHICH HEAVEN OF WHICH HEAVEN Get back in here carcass and fuck your mother in the mirror again again.
Again.
[sniffing glue]

ALL: BLACK OF WHICH HEAVEN OF WHICH HEAVEN

KOLBINN: When you count if you start with 1 you never get past 1.
1 1
[pause]
1 again.

PAUL: Don't start with zero don't start with any number.

NANA: OK Paul. Tell me about how you feel.

PAUL: OK. I SEE
MYSELF ON THE WALL MOVING AS THE LIGHT DIMS AND MEMORY DIMS
I WILL REPEAT MY COMPLETE LIST OF SORROWS AND JOYS:
THE WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN
AND AT THE MOMENT THE WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN
THE WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN.
AND THE FLICKERINGS OF BARDO LACKING NOTHING I NEVER THOUGHT I’D MEET SO MANY PEOPLE WITH THEIR HEADS CUT OFF.
LOOK AT YOU AND YOU’RE PERFECT.

MAX (singing): For the Bible tells me so.

PAUL: DO EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT RIGHT NOW
DO EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AT ANY SINGLE MOMENT
EVERYONE DOING EXACTLY WHAT THEY WANT THEIR WHOLE EXPENDED IN THIS WAY.

NANA: NOTHING STOPS YOU DOING EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT RIGHT NOW.
DOING EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT RIGHT NOW
EVERYONE DOING EVERYTHING.

[MAX has been walking around in high-heeled boots, saying: 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1 1]

MAX: 1 1 1 1 1 1
Gee whiz, Paul, that's great, god said. I have no legs: whole world just two legs. Tell me more about you.